Good Morning World

Okay,

This guy right here is the man of my dreams!

Just thought id let all yalls know.

 :)

As far as the rest of my day goes....

There was one exciting thing to happen. I woke up to Melinda freaking out over why the bathroom ceiling is leaking lol. It was leaking out of the fan, the light, the fire alarm in the hallway, my bedroom doorway, and finally the powerbox. Sounds safe right? I think not. We finally have the situation under control though which is wonderful. The maintenance man said that he is going to bring by a humidifier to dry the place out sometime tomorrow so its going to be really dry and hot. oh well just means i get to cut down on the power bill. :)

I guess im feeling a little better tonight as far as my attitude goes though i am getting on the more annoying side of things which Larissa, Leann, and Melinda......Im sorry :)

I want to start a flash mob and as far as im concerned its gunna happen and its going to be epic :)

Larissas Birthday is coming up and i am hell bent on making her 18th  birthday cake into a penis :) what can i say im a pervy baker. id say its the right balace of the 2 in 1 cake. Im a freakin genious :)I definately have not been sticking to my work out plan and its beginnign to show. i got me some healthy curves a growin on me and im almost okay with it :)

Anyways,

Be Happy,

Kayla <3

Let Those Eyes Sparkle and Shine, Never a tear, Baby of Mine..

I dont know how open to open is on these things but its my blog and ill write whats on my mind i guess.

I am going through family withdrawls. i need to be close to some familier faces. The song thast best suits my mood right now is 'Baby Mine' from the movie Dumbo. Awesome song.

I miss having someone to sleep next to. being held would be nice. even a big hug. Larissa gave me a hug the other day as she was leaving for work and i really needed it to be honest. my funk i always talk about never seems to disappear no matter how hard i try to will it away with a positive attitude and fake smiles.

Im still having a hard time getting a good nights sleep.

I keep taking my pills like my parents like me too. which i understand why they like me when im on them. i am definately a happier and more pleasent person to be aaround but yeah im not sure where i was going with that.
more or less im just rambling now.

 Night Night,

Be Happy,
Kayla <3

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so im looking for a job. im trying to sleep. im trying to have a relationship. and im going to school. other then that nothing too exciting is going on on my end of things.

anyways,

Be Happy,
Kayla <3

good night moon

so its really early in the morning, i cant sleep and ive been having this problem for weeks. pretty soon i feel like im going to pass out from exhaustion. everybody thinks im lazy because i sleep until noon but its not until way lter in the morning until i can fall into a restful sleep. everybody is telling me its stress but idk it probably is. im just not sure what im stressed about.

James and i are back together which makes me a very happy girl but all the same something just doenst feel right. i want to talk to him about it but i havent been able to talk to him for more then 5 minutes without something coming up. oh well soon.

as for the new roomie. shes alright. she keeps touching my things so i can never find them  and her and her boyfriend bug me with them being in our room all the time.

i really miss my family. cody finally got his license, jackie got contacts, audrey moved out, and adam is saying words now! its amazing how much you miss when your gone. :(

i really wish i could get some good sleep.

anyways,

Be Happy,
Kayla <3

Lets see where it leads.

okay so ive come to the conclusion that i really dislike making other feel important. why this is i have no idea. call me selfish or maybe even scared. i have no idea. any thoughts?

also neat freak moved in and i really think i dislike her. she talks about larissa, leann and i behind our back about how we are slobs. we straight up cleaned out apartment before she got here so she wouldn't freak out about it but apparently that wasn't good enough for her. she never talks to us like ever. if she has a problem with how we are let us know. its called compromise. her sleeping habits suck. she sleeps with a freakin box fan on all night, there is no heat in our room so i freeze my liitle butt off. pfff. last night bugged me the most because she had her boyfriend over.... i understand wanting to spend time together and what not but seriously its okay if you want to spend time in front of us instead of in my room until 1 in the freakin morning. gah! i dont think any one person has bugged me this much just by being them. with the exception of like 2 people.

enough about her....

school is just kind of going right now. im not really sure if i still want to be here or not but either way im gunna stick it out till the end because i came here without a lot of support from my dad which i understand where hes coming from but i want to show him how much im capable of and if that means doing this then i will. i knew from the get go that i wasnt quite ready to head back to school and that i wanted a break but when ultimatums are given i dont really have a choice. oh well life throws us curve balls and you have to take the ones you can hit :)

as for my love life, thats still up in the air. i feel like thing are headed inthe right direction again but somethings that go on just dont make sense to me. of course its all the little things that im probably reading way too much into. im sure all of you know those little relationship statuses that tell you whether your married or single right. well mine still says complicated. i didnt really get a choice in all of that so its a completely one sided decision that went on there. my point is with that is i tried to request it back to just saying relationship again since things seem to be getting better and what not but he wont except it. i havent talked to him about it yet but that was like a week ago. idk.

im not going to try and worry too much about any of this though. ive been in the mind set of n the dust set" just go with it and when the dust settles ill be able to understand" so far so good. :)

anyways,

Be Happy,
Kayla <3

Id slap you but i dont want to get slut on my hand :)

Dear Slut face,

I hate you. Please go die.

Sincerely,
The Better Option.

Now that thats off my chest.. hehe im super sore from myt work out bleh i hate being so out of shape.

I went on an adventure to find my buddy Richards place through public transportation. sucked big time. 17 minute walk to the bus stop then another half an hour of drive time. bleh i hate the public.

anyways,

Be Happy,
Kayla <3