Lets see where it leads.

okay so ive come to the conclusion that i really dislike making other feel important. why this is i have no idea. call me selfish or maybe even scared. i have no idea. any thoughts?

also neat freak moved in and i really think i dislike her. she talks about larissa, leann and i behind our back about how we are slobs. we straight up cleaned out apartment before she got here so she wouldn't freak out about it but apparently that wasn't good enough for her. she never talks to us like ever. if she has a problem with how we are let us know. its called compromise. her sleeping habits suck. she sleeps with a freakin box fan on all night, there is no heat in our room so i freeze my liitle butt off. pfff. last night bugged me the most because she had her boyfriend over.... i understand wanting to spend time together and what not but seriously its okay if you want to spend time in front of us instead of in my room until 1 in the freakin morning. gah! i dont think any one person has bugged me this much just by being them. with the exception of like 2 people.

enough about her....

school is just kind of going right now. im not really sure if i still want to be here or not but either way im gunna stick it out till the end because i came here without a lot of support from my dad which i understand where hes coming from but i want to show him how much im capable of and if that means doing this then i will. i knew from the get go that i wasnt quite ready to head back to school and that i wanted a break but when ultimatums are given i dont really have a choice. oh well life throws us curve balls and you have to take the ones you can hit :)

as for my love life, thats still up in the air. i feel like thing are headed inthe right direction again but somethings that go on just dont make sense to me. of course its all the little things that im probably reading way too much into. im sure all of you know those little relationship statuses that tell you whether your married or single right. well mine still says complicated. i didnt really get a choice in all of that so its a completely one sided decision that went on there. my point is with that is i tried to request it back to just saying relationship again since things seem to be getting better and what not but he wont except it. i havent talked to him about it yet but that was like a week ago. idk.

im not going to try and worry too much about any of this though. ive been in the mind set of n the dust set" just go with it and when the dust settles ill be able to understand" so far so good. :)

anyways,

Be Happy,
Kayla <3